Okay. She’s got me. Was always going to vote for her, I’m not a Bernie die-hard, and the stakes are ginormous. But she’s won me over to semi-fandom.
I’ve always sensed and disliked a falsity in Clinton. Now I think it’s just, she’s not a natural orator, and has to work in the shadows of the last two Dem prezzies, who both are. She often seems to be mouthing the right words with a bit too much feeling, or a bit too little, or a little soon or a little late, or just off somehow.
When I get that sense from someone, I worry they’re putting something over on me. Also I’m a word person who treasures ease in language.
Never thought she was lying, or crooked, never gave a flying eff about the e-mails, but thought she was slippery, with less skill at it than Bill.
Now I think she’s a private person forced, for this part, to be public. Seeing Chelsea Clinton, who seems the same way, was illuminating. (Her laugh – nervous, compensatory, I felt for her.) So were the kitchen-table parts of the bio-pic, where she was so at ease. They humanized her for me just as they were meant to. Colour me, Morgan, manipulable.
And, as her speech went on, and she got into the policy deets and the digs at Trump, she seemed to lose her self-consciousness and get her truth on, which was fierce. I’d be just fine with that person leading me.
If that one’s not always on-line when at a podium, okay. A presidency’s not a podium, and authentic’s not a show.
Kinda hawkish for me, still. But even Obama turned out to be. And you can’t always get, according to the RNC soundtrack, what you want.
This one’s everywhere I’m sure by now –
A man you can bait with a tweet is not a man we can trust with nuclear weapons.
Her heart was in that. When she owns her truth, her ferocity, there’s no gainsaying it. When she second-guesses, there’s that falsity. (Why a woman of her time and nation might second-guess her own anger and instincts – a different post.)
And in that falsity she becomes a screen for our projections. Progressives who’ve hewn to Bernie read the falsity as (for example) a dismal capitulation to corporate interests. Republicans with an authoritarian bent (read this) see her as the rotten apple that rots the barrel. Those most keen to see the last glass ceiling smashed may read it as just the cost of entering, as a woman, this patriarchal political world.
Really maybe all it is, is discomfort being public, when you’re more private than that? I don’t know. I’m better being myself in front of a crowd of 75 than she is before a crowd of 30,000. Not much for a comparison. Maybe I should run for president? Not.
But I’m suggesting she’s become a screen for our projections – hopeful or ecstatic, indignant or hateful – just as Trump has.
But this difference. Trump feeds the projection, thrives on it, exists for and by it. Clinton abides it, waits for it to subside, so we can talk. (Obama’s way too.)
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Well said, Christopher!
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I agree. I was thinking this the whole time, but her stories got good about halfway through – when she talked about her mom. I will confess that I initially disliked (very much) the idea of the “woman card,” but that part got me choked up, mainly because my daughter loves Hillary. She did an outstanding job with quirky jokes. I was a die-hard Bernie supporter, but I’m more of a die-hard humanist. The best way to an egalitarian system is through the Democratic Party, and now that Bernie’s gone, I’m a one-issue voter. I always vote against neo-fascist demagogues. It’s actually nice to hear some reason from someone, and that’s why I felt I should actually comment. Thanks.
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At least we can look back on this and say we had the chance to vote against a neo-fascist demagogue, and laugh.